"yeah, i might have dropped a bus tray once or twice, but i actually gave a shit about your peppermint tea."

no words needed.

updates:
1. cut from the softball team, now manager.
2. waitlisted at emerson, still freaking out.
3. given $27 grand from southern new hampshire for financial aid.
4. derek has been asked to prom, and has apparently said yes :( :(
5. i want to ask anthony to prom, but i'm too nervous. maybe i can get over it soon and ask him.
6. there's too much softball drama going on, not on the team, per se, but more involving coaches and parents. gross.
7. i love these shirts:

8. less than 35 days left, graduation may 29th. o.O

"mr. cramer, don't you destroy enough dough on your own show?"

i'm stressing out. i want to get into emerson. i want this more than anything else in my life so far. a kid from leicester got his acceptance letter yesterday. i want to know how i did. right now. i'm panicking, i'm freaking out. i want this so badly, it's insane.

also, on a lighter note, props to jon stewart for letting jim cramer have it.

"i walked over to the tv set and turned it on to a dead channel--white noise at maximum decibels, a fine sound for sleeping, a powerful continuous hiss to drown out everything strange." -fear and loathing in las vegas

"hey beavis, he just said we can't say 'sucks' on here." "really? well, that sucks."

yearbook deadline today, for the whole book. get to school, internet server is down, all day. awesome.

"i wanna make a mess, i wanna blow off stress."

i love my school.  i don't know.  it's weird, but i'm such a fan.  i'm guessing it has something to do with the drastic atmospheric difference it has compared to ola, but it's great.  there's a book fair going on at barnes and noble, and julie and i went last night to take pictures.  jadams and mike were there to do a literature reading, and jadams brought annabelle!  she's sososo adorable.  we got pictures of him holding her and stuff, so cute.  they had to do their performance in the children's section on a stage, and the audience was basically just six or seven ap english kids, past and present.  jadams was like, "this isn't a children's show," and then he saw a little kid standing there and he was like, "oh, but you can stay and listen if you want!"  the little kid ran away.

we had a yearbook meeting today that lasted until around 415, and annabelle made another appearance :).  our deadline is on monday, so we're cutting it close.  it kind of sucks, though, because we have softball try-outs monday after school, so we won't be there to do anything else or see mr. lajoie hit the "complete and assemble" button.  :(.  i'm gonna miss yearbook so much.  it was possibly one of the best experiences of my high school years.  really seriously.

i can't stop listening to 311.

"why in pluperfect hell would you pee on a corpse?"

the writers conference was fun today, my group was way better than last year. caitlin and aisha were in it, too, so i didn't have to worry about being alone. we all read our stories to each other and i wrote one called "elementary, my dear downey" about...take a guess. one of the kids said i read part of it really well (a part where i freaked out because i thought we got lost and i wouldn't be able to meet him), and that made me really happy. plus, everyone else liked it a lot. :)
we saw watchmen afterward, which was good, but i was kind of taken by surprise at all the violence. like instead of handcuffing a guy to a furnace and then burning the house he was in to the ground, rorschach just chopped his head in half with a meat cleaver. there was also a part where a midget and two big guys try to beat up rorschach in jail, but the midget was played by the guy who plays mickey in seinfeld, and i couldn't take him seriously, i just kept laughing to myself. it bothered me that alan moore refused to attach his name to the movie because he didn't think any movie adaptation could do his book justice. i dunno, that just seems really snobbish to me. i think i'd be honored if anyone was a big enough fan of something i'd written that they'd want to turn it into a movie. but hey, that's just me. i really liked the cinematography, though, i thought it was awesome throughout the movie. it kind of made it feel graphic novel-ish, which was cool. but yeah...

...who does watch the watchmen?

i am also now a big fan of ari gold. i don't know why, but i am.

www.fmylife.com

i don't feel this way, but the site is so funny

"there's always someone cooler than you."

kibitz.

snow day today :) i'm trying to finish watchmen by friday, but i still have to write a stupid death penalty essay, and yearbook ads are distracting me. my feet are cold, but they feel gross when i put socks on. it's quite the predicament. maybe i should find a new pair of socks. new heroes tonight!

smile like you've got nothing to prove
no matter what you might do
there's always someone out there cooler than you
make me feel tiny if it makes you feel small,
but there's always someone cooler than you
yeah, you're the shit but you won't be for long
oh, there's always someone cooler than you
yeah, there's always someone cooler than you.

ben folds makes me so happy.

"light up your face with gladness, hide every trace of sadness..."

i have so many writing prompts from the nanowrimo site, it's insane. i can't wait to use them.
i've been listening to dispatch all day, and it's been pretty relaxing. apparently there's going to be like 12 inches of snow tonight? no school would be awesome.
in exactly one month from today, i find out if i'm going to emerson or not. i'm so nervous. fingers crossed!